Where I Am

     Well, it has been a long while since I have added to this blog. The new year has been a strange one for sure. As it started, I was unsure of alot of things, including myself. Life had dealt, for lack of better word, a rough hand to play. At my age of 44 years , I have buried two husbands and divorced one. I was fairly sure that my life was due for a change and I was damn sure it did not involve another permanent relationship. Bills were adding up, things were breaking down, kids were still growing and had needs, and myself, well , I had just about all I could take...Every thing I tried to do in a positive manner seemed to backfire. At this point, I just decided, what the hell..I can only do so much, only handle so much...I let go of most(I am only human) of my stress and trusted things to just go right somehow..And most of the time they did..But I was still feeling alone, down, and useless..Then I found my high school sweetheart, we talked and straightened out the way things went wrong all those years ago..And we kept talking and talking and talking..Seems things are moving right along from where they left off..So much for no more relationships..This was where I was supposed to be..I was supposed to have shared the last 30 years with this man and did not get to. But I will share the rest of my life with him. I will give him what we both have craved for, a love that has no bounds and no limits...A love that was meant to be shared by our two hearts for all eternity...And it will be...