Get a Grip People!!!

Why do people tell you one thing and then when you try doing what they told you to they have changed their minds?! After all this time of trying to hold on to something and falling behind on other expenses, I finally decided to do what was suggested and now I get the "we are not sure we want you to do that". So then it's like ,"what do you want me to do then?" and guess what...No response from two out four of the party involved. Nothing! Give me a fricken break already! So now I am stuck with a payment I can not make, which means I am getting charged late fees and extra finance charges and the taxes are due and they do not want to answer..Trying to be leveled headed and cool about this is becoming very difficult. The main problem is that no one is communicating with me so that I can communicate with those that the money is owed to..So, the original owner is fixing to get the property back because this is not going to be the way my year goes.....

Helping Hand

   People often struggle to change themselves, physically and emotionally. They ask their friends and peers to help with their issues at hand. The problem with this is that a peer or friend can only do so much. They can only help as much as you let them, because ultimately you have to want to help yourself. It is very easy to find a million excuses to continue what you know you should not, so why is it so hard to find the one ultimate excuse to break it. To give up what we use as crutches or what we are comfortable with is more difficult than anything most people go through. Will power, positive attitude, and learning to trust yourself to try and do the right thing are difficult tasks. Nothing worthwhile is ever easy. Life itself is a challenge, a challenge that we all live one day at a time. Some slay their inner demons, their weak areas of doubt and toss their crutches. Some do not. I am continually fighting some of mine, but will not give up hope that one day I will conquer them.

           Never lose sight of the path you have traveled,

                 For that path and what you learned from it is

            what makes you who you are today....

                                                       Whtwolf

Where I Am

     Well, it has been a long while since I have added to this blog. The new year has been a strange one for sure. As it started, I was unsure of alot of things, including myself. Life had dealt, for lack of better word, a rough hand to play. At my age of 44 years , I have buried two husbands and divorced one. I was fairly sure that my life was due for a change and I was damn sure it did not involve another permanent relationship. Bills were adding up, things were breaking down, kids were still growing and had needs, and myself, well , I had just about all I could take...Every thing I tried to do in a positive manner seemed to backfire. At this point, I just decided, what the hell..I can only do so much, only handle so much...I let go of most(I am only human) of my stress and trusted things to just go right somehow..And most of the time they did..But I was still feeling alone, down, and useless..Then I found my high school sweetheart, we talked and straightened out the way things went wrong all those years ago..And we kept talking and talking and talking..Seems things are moving right along from where they left off..So much for no more relationships..This was where I was supposed to be..I was supposed to have shared the last 30 years with this man and did not get to. But I will share the rest of my life with him. I will give him what we both have craved for, a love that has no bounds and no limits...A love that was meant to be shared by our two hearts for all eternity...And it will be...