Changes Continued

      So, time has gone by since last post and things are still changing. For a while there seem to be a recharge or burst of energy so to speak. Not sure if it was just a desire to prove something or a kind of reassurance. A couple month later, things are reversed and moving in a new way again. Mentally, I am confused. Physically, I am confused. Has something changed? Is there new emotions or new desires or what? Still trying to figure this out.....

Changes

          What do you do when all the sudden someone you thought you knew better than yourself tells you what could be a life changing secret? You love this person beyond all else, would give your life for this person. Then out of the blue they tell you something so personal to them and something you should know, but the secret is far from what you expected. Not only did they share it verbally with you , but since they told you , there demeanor is different as they seem to want to not only share with you but the world(some of which you find out already knew). 
            It is totally strange sitting there in the room with them as they are now exploring that side which was closed. What will happen the more it is explored? What changes will occur, besides the ones that are already showing up in glimmers? And why the sudden urge to explore this side now? What brought on this need, is the urge to explore those feelings getting stronger and are they going to over power them?
            All these questions with no real answers on my part. There is nothing I can do but witness all the changes and hope that all ends well. As the new year approaches, I know the love is full and abundant. The goals set for the future are great and positive. So guess we will sit back and see what happens. May every one's  New Year be productive but full of peace , love, and happiness..
                                   

Continuing My Path

       I am back on track and know what I want. My life is my own with a great partner in my husband to share it with. We both want pretty much the same thing in our lives, the same future for us and our family. And though the path will not be easy, we are working together to achieve that goal. Starting small but who knows, we could end up on the big side of things....

Patriotic Thoughts

        As they search the perimeter of the camp to secure it for the night, the rain soaks through their uniforms. They continue on as if it is nothing new, besides it cools them from the heat of the day they just spent crossing the hot desert with its sand storms blowing in from all directions. At the camp, those that have rest for but a few hours are getting ready to head out to do a recon of a enemy camp in the distance. They each gather their own rations and keep their thoughts to themselves as they get their heads in the frame of mind the mission requires. No one knows how these things might end. Crap happens and sometimes it goes all wrong, but they do it anyway because its what they signed up to do. They signed a "blank check" that says they are there to fight for the rights of others. Some give their lives in this fight and some come home with wounds that are visible to the eye and some come home with wounds that you can never see or know the pain of. All of our soldiers deserve more than they will ever get from our government, but there is no reason that we the people can not show them our pride in what they given for our country and us. It is because of the soldiers and what they continue to give that we have our great country. Thank you to each and every one of you who have served and given your all for us.

Us

As we continue to grow
In our love one for another,
We learn the likes and dislikes
Of each other.
You have your beliefs,
And I have mine,
Even though they are not the same,
We try to be kind.
I accept yours,
Respect your God,
Why is mine a subject
Of constant jibes.
They both have made us
What we are,
I am thankful to Odin
for bringing you back to my heart.
But without God
And the Great Spirit above,
My heart might not have been here,
For you to love.
All together,
Our gods have kept us whole,
So that when the time came
We could join our two souls.
                        Whtwolf

Where Should I Go

Where should I go I ask,
The reply is my own grunt of disgust,
There is no where to go
On this Earth,
For all the power is up above,
With the one's who have gone before.
The one's who worry no more.
The Great Spirit, the God of the world,
As given them a graceful place
To lay their weary heads.
Again I ask, Where can I go?
What do I do to lighten
My load.
Pray to the Great One, The All Knowing,
Pray and when he feels it is right,
He will show you the light.
But ,What do I do now?
The bills are piling and the creditors
Are biting, all wanting to take a chunk
Of something I haven't got.
What should I do?
Pray for patience and strength,
Pray for courage to travel the path,
The path that only you can choose..
Ask for these,
And with these you will see,
I have always been with you,
Couldn't you feel me?
You have survived ,
Time after time,
The hardships of life that you
Have lived thus far.
Through your blind faith,
you have given me your heart,
Your trust in me to do my part.
I will not fail you,
Don't lose faith,
All you have to do is
Pray and wait.
                    Whtwolf

I Am A Survivor

I am tired and my patience is thin,
Tolerance is a little off and
Anger is within.
Stress is up cause of not
Knowing what to do,
Am I gonna sink or swim.
I will swim,
For it is not in me to fail,
I am a survivor who has lived in Hell.

Written in the 90's by : Whtwolf

Now my life is on track
And I have a sense of
Fulfillment back.
A long lost love has come back
And my circle of life
Is back on its path.
My heart is whole,
My life is good and I have
Survived another chapter in my book.

Written in 2012 by: Whtwolf